Wow its been so long since i wrote in here..

Well lets see whats been goin on in my life so far. Skewl was tuff cuz der was essays n tons of work to be done every day but somehow i maniged to get it all done and over with. Glad that x-mas break is here cuz i really needed it. Wont be back in skewl untill Jan 30th so its a pretty long break which is great.

Prolly be workin all break but it doesnt hurt yo earn some money..Especially when i can really use some cash cuz i owe mom some...Work is just da same.Der are good days and der are bad days.Work always gets in the way of everything.

Been missing all my friends. Its hard not to thoug cuz dey mean a lot to me. And especially living in Raritan and having all ur friends livin in Linden or else where. Now that im on my break maybe i'll actually have some time to spend with my friends cuz before it was hard with skewl n work being in da middle.

Lory---- u no dat ur always my sestra. It was nice of you to call on x-mas dat really made my day..However i miss ya girlie. Things have changed so much and it sux not having you as a friend.We used to be so close and now each dat we grow more apart from each other. I Miss da old you.We used to have so much fun and we shared so many great memories,however i'd like to share more of dose great memories n not just what we used to have. I understand that like is not easy but if you take that time to look deeper you can actually make it easier. I know that nobody's life is perfect but your makin ur life more complicated and harder then it should be. Sweetie you dat i love you more then anything in da world becaus eu were my first best friend in US and i'll never forget that. But sometimes i dont even no what to do with you. I try to help ypu as much as i can. i try to give ya da best advice dat i possible can but at times i guess its just not enuff. However i hope that u realize that i will always be here for you no matter what. Ur friends are your angels sweetie. They will always be der for you to guide you and dats what i've been trying to do for you.. to show you the path to ur future but at times you take my advice. I have always been der for you, siting here and listing all the possible times that i've helped yout out and been der for you wont help da situation. Sweetie you are a bright young lady who has so much going for her. U always had good grades back in high school and u graduated sucessfully with out any problems. You coul've been in college right now and almost done with it if all went well. I no dat u had problems in ur life and i understand. But i no you, and i no dat u can be a very strong person if u wanted to be. You fall but u never give up. you always find a way to pull urself up. Dats how i remember you being, but now ur a completely different person and i dont know what happend to you. Ur the opposite of what u used to be. U gve up easily with out fighting. Remember this sweetie a job will never come to you.. u have to go and look for it and do what ever it takes. If there is something that you really want you set your mind to it and you do what ever it takes to get it. I no that you want to work in an office but in order to get a good job you need to start from scratch and keep goin farther. We all start from a small lever and work our way up because that just how it works.  Dont turn down the appertunities that are in front of your face. I no that there are a lot of jobs that you may not like but you have to remember that da jobs that we do like are hard to get to. Therefore we need to start from scratch and work our way up. I may not like my job either because its not the best thing out der but im workin my way out. I dont want to be a waitress my whole life but we all have to start somewhere. So hun dont give up keep fighting and dont be afraid to take a chance. It mite not be da best chance but its da best one for one trust me. I dont think that i have ever giving you any bad advice therefore take it and use it. I just want to help you. I no that u are having problems with your boyfriend but remember dat i am always here for you. N remember what i've told you before your true friends will always be here for you.. Boyfriends come and go but true friends will stay der always n be true to you. I miss ya lost girlie. Hope things can go back to way they used to be and i hope that i can get my old best friend back cuz i miss her a lot.

Liz---- i miss ya lots too chica. Gosh i still remember dat summer when we got mad close and we would chill almost every day. Ud always come over n we'd drive around waste gas cuz dats just what we were good at. Going to carvel was fun too cuz we'de get either free ice cream or half price. Chillin at my house till midnite was even better.Talking on da phone bout nothing was always fun too lol. Den havin Lena get jealous of me cuz we used to spend so much time together but look its all gone now and things are so different now. I miss dat summer. It was da best one ever. Oh lol remember that time when it snowed so bad that u were trapped in my house for a while yea dat was great.. good times good times and i miss dem rearly. Wish things can still be the same but deir not. Things do change and at time we have to accept the consequences of life. We shared some great memories and i will never forget them. Sexy stripers  all da way lolz. Miss ya lots chica.

Glad that i met Erin n Airick in da beginning of Sep. Their great and im glad that we're all good friends. Thye have helped me out so much dese past few months and i dont know what i have done without them. Airick ur an amazing person and u always know how to make ppl feel good about demselves. You always knew that to say and what not to say. You alwasy gave me the comfort that i needed. No mattere what mood i was in u always knew how to make me smile. Although at time it didnt work atleast i know that u tried. Erin ur my other half as you know that by now. Im glad to have someone like u in my life cuz we share da same problems and having someone experience something dat i goin through and knowin exactly how i feel makes me feel safe knowin that im not alone. Thank you both for always being der for me. Thanx for helpin me when i was at my worse with my depressiong. It ment a lot to me that you guys cared and always tried to be der. So thanx for being such wonderful and caring friends.

Ullie--- dont think dat i forgot about you becaus ei haven't. You have always been my ukie crazy best friend and i dunno what i have done with out you. We have shared so many amazing memories and we're still sharing them. Thoug its not easy with us being kinda far from each other we try our best cuz we are Ukrainian's and we never give up no matter what. we always no how to pull ourselves back on track. We have always been der for each other or atleast we tried lol. Lol remember that time when u got so fuckin drunk and u had a big hang over so u called me and asked me if i could come over, well actually u bagged me lol cuz i was grounded at da time n i couldn't leave da house but sht when my grl is introuble i need to save her so i says da hell wit dis shit n i made nadi drop me off at ur house cuz dats da kind of friend i am. You have always put everyone else first and thats what makes u such a wonderful friend. You would do anything for people to make dem happy or feel better. You would drop what ever it is dat ur doin just to be der for ur friends and thou u mite not have been rewarded yet trust me ur time will come and u'll see how much people love you and thank you for being such a wonderful and amazing friend, and u will see how much dey appreciate everything that u have done for them. You know that i care a lot bout you and i would do anything for you sweetie. I love you so much hunny and miss ya lots too.

Lola--- sweetie i dont even no where to start. Dese past few years have been amazing thanx to you. u have made me a diferent person and its because of you that i am so strong. If i was to sit here and wtite everythng about you gosh this page would never end. Ther eis so much to say about you hunny. But im just gonna make it short and simple. You know what i have mad love for you and i will always bew here for you no matter what. Though we live far from each other and never had tha apportunety to meet we have shared so many wonderful memories. we have been in a long deep jerney that will never end. We have always had da same problems and with each other being der we have overcomed our feras and problems. You have always been my angel and you will always be.I thank you so much for always being der fo rme. for always giving me the best advice that you possible can. for always guiding me in da wrong direction.for alwasy lettin me know when im rite and when im wrong. for always making me smile. the tears that we shed together were always happy tears because we care so much about each other. So thank you mami for ur wonderful friendship and everythng that you have done for me. Life would'nt be da same with out u der. So once again thanx mami. Love you lost.

Ok dis is all for today.Happy Holidays to everyone and i will see ya next year.  2006!